Psalm 32:8

I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go, I will counsel you and watch over you.

-Psalm 32:8

Last November we went to visit my great grandpa in Arizona. We were getting ready for church and my mom asked him a question, then he responded, “Yeah, but those young guys always wear their ball caps in church”.

My mom replied “Well grandpa, would you rather them be in church, wearing ball caps, listening to the word of God or to not be there at all?” My mom had struck him; he didn’t know what to say. DSC00922_edited

This incident with my grandpa really got me thinking, though, about how judgmental people, particularly Christian people can be. They tend to stick to these rules like how you should dress, minorities are just that, minorities, you can’t be with or marry the same sex, or you can’t have sex before marriage. God created us to love one another, to forgive one another of our sins. It makes me incredibly sad to hear a Christian say, “Marriage is between one man and one woman”. I am sorry if you have ever witnessed that being preached because I can guarantee that the person who said that has sinned more than once. Like had more than 1 or 2 divorces. *cough cough Kim Davis* Everybody sins, nobody is perfect. People tend to pick and choose what they want to believe and what they think are sins or not. Besides, it’s nobody’s business what you do with your life.

My cousin Stephanie and her new husband!

I just got back from my cousin Stephanie’s wedding and my mom, cousin Andrea, and I had this conversation about religion. Which was perfect because I had already started writing this blog! My cousin Andrea had said, “My biggest pet-peeve is when they lie and can’t admit to their sins”. I think why they do not admit is because they are afraid of the judgment, which is so interesting to me because they are the ones dishing it most of the time. I think it also involves the picking and choosing. They turn their heads away from their own mistakes and focus on issues that don’t even involve them in any way. It also has to go back to the ridiculous rules and to what they see has sins. Is it really going to damn me to hell for cussing? What I think damns you to hell is actions like murder, rape, and theft.

So you may ask do I even go to church every Sunday? No, I’ve missed the last 46 weeks. Do I read the bible religiously? No, I can even admit that I don’t know every story and I certainly don’t know everything it says. Do I believe what I have read or learned? No, I don’t. God didn’t write it himself did he? Do I even own a bible? Yes! I do! Do I believe in God? Yes, I do but I think in a different way than most do. As I have met Christians and been to different churches I think many have gotten lost in what makes them a believer. They loose touch of what brought them to accepting God’s trust. They need to rethink their faith and refocus why they are in church. They are their to learn about God; not to abolish plan parenthood.

So where does my faith come from? A couple summers ago my great grandpa came and he asked that we take him to church. While he went to Sunday school my mom and I joined a group, too. They taught us about God from the very beginning with the book of Genesis.  I started to put the beliefs I was raised with and put them with the beliefs I was learning. I could see why they believed, but a part of me still needed the science to explain most of it.

Last spring Garrett took me to see Thorn. If you haven’t seen it you must go! It is an amazing experience. At the end of the play they ask you to leave any troubles or sins at the cross so you can start to be cleansed. I thought to myself well if there is anytime to pray its got to be now. So I asked God to please help me down a healthy path. It didn’t happen over night and I don’t know if it was prayer or the story I heard that night but I was ready to get up and help myself.

I believe that everything happens for a reason. When your in a rush for work and you take that wrong turn even though you take the same way every day I believe that’s God leaving a message. You weren’t meant to take that way for whatever reason. Maybe you tune into the news later that day and there was a car accident on the road you should have taken.

I believe in a relationship with God. Are you curious to learn about him? Do you talk with him or at him? Meaning are you only asking him for forgiveness or is his guidance to heal from the sin important, too?

I believe in loving and accepting every individual for who they are as a person and for their character. Not accepting them for their religion, race, sexuality, or class is a sin.

I believe in lending a helping hand. When you have the means to and even when you don’t have the means to help someone.

I believe that only he can judge, but only on things that truly matter.

And I believe that I am still figuring out what I believe! I am still learning everyday and you should never stop learning and experiencing new journeys!

What do you believe? What journey in your life brought you to your faith? Or what turned you away from faith? How have these journeys changed your life?

Remember that you are so incredibly special, an inspiration,DSC00867_edited and beautiful inside and out! Thanks for reading! Don’t hesitate to share your stories with me!

Much Love,

Manda 🙂


  1. Bio Dad

    September 24, 2015 at 7:50 AM

    Very good. Never stop questioning things. It’s your religion and relationship with God. Your path that he and you laid out for your life only you or him can change that. Question every situation and ask why did that happen. You will always find the answer. Don’t fall into the judgements of others cause like you said we all have are demons. James 4;12 lays the law “Theere is only one lawgiver and judge, he who is able to save and to destroy. But who are you to judge your neighbor”

    When you walk into a church human nature of people have judged you from head to toe. And let them because God knows his plan and your just there for the experience and the ride.

    Never stop questioning everything and form what answers fell right to you and tell everyone else to screw off. Not their life.

  2. Mom #2

    September 24, 2015 at 9:24 PM

    Beautifully written! Your Grammie is the reason I have a personal relationship with God. <3

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